The Past.

My 10 year high school reunion is coming up this weekend. I am extremely excited about seeing the friends that helped me through my high school years, I am also kind of scared to see the ones that always made fun of me.

Let me explain what had happened to me. As you you know my father passed away when I was 7 years old, just four days before my sister was born. My mother never got over the death of my father. Everything was going good until the summer of my senior year. My mom told me that I was the reason my father passed away, because a couple of weeks before I saw my dad, for the last time, a couple of my friends had the chicken pox. She told me that was the reason that he passed away because I was contagious with the chicken pox.

That summer things became extremely hard for me. She told me that I had to choose between working and playing soccer because I was no longer allowed to live in her house, because I was the reason the love of her life died. At the age of 17 I was kicked out of the house. I was ashamed to tell this to any friends, because there was no room for personal drama in high school, and I did not want to be people to think of me as my mom did "that is the girl that killed her father". Of course most of you know what happened. I ended up leaving the beloved high school that was about to graduate from. I dropped out so I could work to live my own, I was scared to call my grandparents, they live in Nebraska, because I thought that they thought the same thing, that I was the reason my dad died. When I finally did call them, they told me to come and live with them and get things sorted out. So that is what I did.

After living there for over a year I moved back to Tennessee, to sort things out with my mother. Which did not work out well. Now, I am happy that this happened because it made me a stronger person and I would have never met my husband and had two wonderful children.

What a day!

Well, today is Saturday and I did not do anything that was on my "to do list". So, what did I do today? I played with the kids most of the day and did some class work. My "to do list" was filled with cleaning, cleaning and more cleaning. Ok, not that much cleaning. But when I am cleaning after two toddlers it feels like I am cleaning like that.

I did plan on taking the kids to the pool today, that did not happen because of the temperature. I did not want Evan to have any respiratory problems with the heat advisory that we are under at the moment. Tomorrow is another day, Sean is off and I am thinking about traveling the 45 minutes to go to Nashville West to go to Target. I need to start looking for something to wear for my 10 year high school reunion, Oh my goodness! I can not believe that it has been 10 years.

Carla

The First One!

This is my very first blog, I am doing this because I am looking for answers. Not just any answers, but answers about faith and the reasoning behind why things happen, and why they happen to good people. Another reason for doing this blog; A couple of weeks ago I was visiting my grandmother in Nebraska and as we were talking I realized that I could not remember alot about my childhood. So, I am hoping that if I write about things that I remember may some of my memories will come back.

Ok, here it goes. Well, just not yet. I am not going to start asking the hard questions until later on. Right now I am going to tell you about my morning. Have you just been so irritable that you just want to scream? That is what my morning was like, the kids were at each other and people on the road were just making me more irritable.

Now, I am much better. I was able to get some mommy time! Sometimes that is all it takes to feel better.